Day 4
"Hey, that´s SO not fair!!"
I gazed at the lazy looking patient in front of me and pouted. There where 3 black chess pieces and 6 white chess pieces on the board, white being mine, and I still lost. He smiled at me and said:
"Even though I won, you were still a pretty good opponent."
I smiled.
"Really?"
"Yes, no one has ever played a game with me for over 30 minutes. They always lose too early."
"Well, that sure made my day."
He smiled again and stood up.
"I should go. It´s almost 4 and I dont want to miss bingo."
I laughed at him, not in a bad way though, and started to collect the pieces of the game.
Shikamaru loved bingo because it was unpredictable. There was no way he could predict his win or his loss. It was all luck, no smarts needed.
Even though he loved using his brain.
He´s very smart, you see.
Men are a mystery.
Chess was pretty fun. I used to like playing by myself, since almost no one ever knew how to play it but me, and also cause I didnt have many friends left. But when I saw Shikamaru from ward no. 6 playing it, I just had to suggest playing against him. And Im glad I did. He seemed like an interesting person. Sure he was a little lazy, and by a little I mean all he did was sleep and watch clouds, but he was fun to talk to. And since he´s really smart, I like talking about philosophy with him. He doesnt look like it but he has an opinion about a lot of things.
"Same time tomorrow?" I asked, hoping he wasnt tired of me already.
He nodded and left.
A man of few words.
Well, at least I have something to do tomorrow.
Shikamaru had a really rare disease (well, dont we all here). I dont remember what it was called exactly, but it had something to do with his lungs. I think it was something like his lungs are destroying themselves. Or something. He said he had about 5 months left but I said it never hurt to be a little more optimistic about these kind of stuff. The doctors hadnt said anything about how much time he had left, he just predicted. I really hope he´s not that smart to predict his own death. He´s such a nice guy...
I put the board with the pieces under my bed and went to look out of the window. It actually started to look a little like spring.
Everything around me was so weird.
The fact that I had almost died 2 days ago, the fact that they (I mean the doctors) let me walk around without any medicine droppers around my neck or something, the fact that I havent seen any of the doctors for 2 days now, the fact that some guy from ward no. 7 was flirting with me all day yesterday, and, oh, I could go on forever.
All this stuff going on these last few days...
I feel like something´s up.
Like they are not telling me something and I´ve suddenly been sprayed with some kind of „popularity paint“. Im serious. All these people gathering around me is just weird. Maybe that´s God´s way of telling me to do all kinds of stuff since I´ll die soon anyways. Not that I believe in him. I dont believe in destiny either.
So what´s out there for me?
„Um...so-sorry, are you...no, n-no, it cant be...“
I turned around, only to meet Sadako. Well, Im exaggerating a bit. Her hair wasnt really that messy but it was incredibly dark and long. And the white dress scared me too. I bowed a little to see if the girl actually had a face or not.
What?!
This is scary!
„Ah~! Im sorry!“ I heard her say.
I walked a few steps closer to her, still bent down a bit.
I saw a mouth. Well, that´s a start.
„Why are you sorry? You didnt do anything,“ I tried to laugh it off.
I could see her rosy cheeks now. Well, they were bright red actually. Could she really be embarrassed?
„Im Miyuki. Did you want to tell me something?“
„Umm...“
Her head started to rise.
Wow, she was really pretty.
But...her eyes...they were...white?
„I was wondering if you..kn-knew...did you re-really know Kagetora?“
I glared at her.
This was the last thing I had expected.
Ka-Kagetora?
Even though that sure was a surprising question..
I could not stop staring at her eyes.
„You must be wondering about my eyes...I have Multifocal Choroiditis, a really ba-bad case of it in fact. I can still see you a bit,“ she spoke.
Multifo-wha~?
„White spots. Very large white spo-spots. They are usually supposed to be quite small. But I guess I wa-wasnt that lucky.“
It´s like she´s reading my mind!
„Since I can´t see very well, I can kinda sense people´s emotions. Im so-sorry if it freaks you out. My name is Hyuga Hinata.“
Ok, this is really freaky.
„Ho-how did you know Kagetora?“
I tried not to sound like 1000 different emotions were running through me. But I guess that pretty much failed.
„Well, I...I used to da-date him. Im su-sure he didnt talk about me cause we both promised to keep it a secret. Bu-but he spoke about you a lot. I heard Shikamaru talk to Ki-Kiba about a girl named Miyuki. The way he described you... I immediately thought it´d be yo-you. And I was right.“
„Kagetora had a girlfriend?“
What a stupid question, she just told you!
„Well, before he lo-locked me in here. I did so much for him. Yet he still made me come here. But now it´s too la-late anyways.“
„Wait, he MADE you come here?“
„You o-only saw, and still see, him as a good guy who made a few wrong turns, but still was a good guy inside. He wa-wasnt. Isnt.“
What the hell is she talking about?
Isnt?
„You are he-here because of him, yes? It was the same with me. I said he locked me in here, it would be nearer to the truth to say that I actually locked myself here. Like yo-you did. One phone call from him and you go out to save him. You find him on the ground, looking all hu-hurt. And then you see him die. And the next thi-thing you know, there is something wrong with you. All because you trusted him.“
My eyes were filled with tears by now.
No, I cant believe it. I...I trusted him.
„So, what you are saying is that I have to blame myself?“
I said that with full confidence. I cant look weak.
What if she isnt who I think she is?
„The ma-main thing is that he´s alive. Fo-for sure. And you cant blame yourself. Im the only one who can blame myself. I had only known him for a year or so. You knew him your who-whole li-life. He was cunning, charming, assertive. How co-could I not fall for him? But a friend. Being a friend is much harder. I admire you. You helped him no matter wha-what.“ she stammered. She didnt look confident anymore.
I was confused.
No.
Astonished.
I was unsettle. Disturbed.
I could not think anymore.
Nothing made sense anymore.
„Hinata? Could you please go? Not to be rude but...Im having a hard time believing you,“ I told her, turning around to face the window.
„And I was hoping you´d be smart...“
With that she left.
I placed my hands on the sill and eyed them carefully.
„You witty little son of a...“
If things really are like Hinata just told me...
Why did he do it?
What could he possibly get out of it?
But...I saw him with my own two eyes as he ...
No, no I didnt.
I didnt see him blow up.
I didnt see the explosion.
In fact, I have heard neither read anything about it.
This is too confusing.
Too overbearing.
Too..
I cant think.
What if...?
No!
I knew him!
I knew him for sure.
He wouldnt do this to me...
Whatever I have...I cant possible blame him.
What if Hinata was wrong?
I looked outside.
It truly was starting to look like spring.
The snow was practically gone.
I remember how I used to lend my rubber boots to him during spring.
And there was this time when I only had pink ones left (cause he had ruined them all) and I made him wear them.
That was 7th grade.
Ive known you since 3rd grade.
You freakin´ kissed me!
Just to prove your friends that girls didnt have cooties.
I hit you.
You were mad.
After school you apologized.
We became friends.
Oh, how I hate you right now...
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Chapter end notes: Shikamaru has a lung disease cause he smokes.
Hinata has an eye disease cause she uses Byakugan.
I thought it´d make more sense ^^
Im actually sick so I might not post a new chapter next week. But if I suddenly get inspired, I´ll drag myself out of bed XD
Also, Im pretty sure you must be quite confused with this chapter. I´ll try to make sense in the next one ^^b