-naruto-
We're at your house again.
It's so big, Sasuke.
So empty.
Do you ever feel lonely here?
Aren't you haunted by the sound of your own footsteps echoing through all of these long twisting corridors?
Doesn't it remind you that you're alone?
You haven't spoken for a long time.
And I'm waiting at your door, every breath unsteady, seemingly so loud in this silent home of yours.
And there's that strange noise.
So quick and loud and frantic...
Ringing, ringing in my ears...
What in the world could it be?
And then I realize,
It is merely the sound of my heart.
I hesitate, I'm always hesitating, but open the door.
You're on the bed.
Laying on your side, turned away from me, towards the window.
Funny how you always have your back to me.
I'm not sure if you realized I had entered the room.
I watch you, and I think I'm sure you're not breathing.
Like you're holding your breath.
Waiting.
But then I see your chest moving slightly.
And I know I had imagined it.
I begin to move slowly, cautiously towards you.
And once again I hesitate, so close to you, so very close, and sit down quietly on the side of the mattress.
You stare out the window, as if I'm not even there.
Just a ghost of the past, whispering across the edges of your mind.
But I'm not.
I'm real.
I'm here.
A reach out a hand, touching your shoulder gently.
It is a soft touch.
Barely there, hesitant.
You don't speak.
You don't turn to look at me.
And I feel my heart ache.
Don't ignore me, Sasuke.
Please don't pretend I'm not alive.
A shift closer, wrapping my arms around your chest from behind, holding you in my desperate embrace.
I hear your breath catch.
Your heartbeat quicken.
Did I surprise you?
"Sasuke..."
You don't respond, finally, finally turning those dark eyes to meet mine.
They're so blank, so empty and black.
You're shutting me out.
"You bastard..."
I think I'm crying now.
I feel the tears streaking down my cheeks, so cold and familiar to my skin.
So bitter and sad.
"Sasuke, you bastard..."
I hear my voice deftly, not quite realizing that I'm the one speaking.
I'm too wrapped up in crying, in trying to supress the sobs clawing at my throat.
"Stop this... Stop shutting me out... Stop ignoring me... Stop trying to make me not exist"
I cling tighter to you and you turn your head away, staring down at the mattress.
"I exist, Sasuke. I'm here. Don't pretend..."
My voice is pleading, quiet and so desperate.
"Don't pretend I'm not..."
You don't say anything.
And you don't know how much that hurts.
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