I always thought of you as a friend.
but you always ignore me.
i try to show my true self.
but my words fear to come out.
at first sight you were my true love.
i knew you were the right one.
even though your eyes never go my way.
your sight was set on a certain girl.
not any girl,but a pink haired one.
she never showed any love to you.
but you kept going after her.
she despised you along with the guy she admired.
why? why do you still love her?
why not me?
what does she have that i don't?
what can she do that i can't?
is it that she can express herself freely?
is it her looks or her skills?
those things i'll never know.
i hate her but it's against my nature to hate.
i'd never hate someone that didn't do anything.
to me.
to anyone else.
she'd always hit you if you said the wrong thing.
just like me,she's a nice person.
so why? why do i hate her?
but you.
you were my loved one since we were young.
your determination and persistence was your nature.
i have always tried to be like you.
i've tried to change myself since you fought kiba.
he always beat you down in brutal ways.
and yet you kept getting up.
that inspired me.
to be like you.
to change.
to be a better person.
and every time we encounter each other.
i shake
i stutter
i can barely talk.
but those habits are gone.
i'm a new person.
no more being the shy and timid girl you knew.
all of that is gone now.
that same girl i despise,she seemed to be a friend.
it's all because she got us together.
and that same question still follows me.
was it all worth it?