To See Him Smile

“Kaname-kun? Will you come here for a moment?” A sweetly sinister voice asked from down the long dark corridor.

“Yes Orochimaru-sama.” An extremely tall boy said. He fiddled with his thick black collar around his neck as he walked down the hall. He came to a room with a large elegant bed in the middle. The bed was covered with fine Egyptian cotton and an extremely pale man with long, silky raven hair rested lazily in the middle of the bed.

“Sasuke-kun has learned a new technique. Why don’t you to go play and see each other’s progress?” The boy looked up at his owner…yes owner. He was given to Orochimaru as a gift from his family to spare their lives. He spared them all right. He now uses them as specimens for his experiments but they are living.

“Yes Orochimaru-sama,” the tall boy said as he bowed.

“Are you forgetting something Kaname-kun?” the snake sannin asked. The boy hesitated for a moment. And just in that moment of hesitation Orochimaru’s snake tongue jutted out and pulled the boy to him by the collar. “It’s a good thing we decided to get you this collar. How would I punish you if I didn’t have it?” He purred. The snake sannin dug his nails into the boy's back, enjoying the feeling of blood seeping out of the teen, and licked from his cheek to his mouth. “If you know what’s good for you, you’ll start obeying me like the good pet you are,” Orochimaru warned. "While yes I know you are suffering because of the loss of your friend you still need to behave." The brown haired boy gave in and kissed his master obediently. The kiss was not full of love, or even lust. It was a dominance thing. Orochimaru had to prove that he owned this boy. “That’s a good boy. Now run along and play with Sasuke-kun.” The snake dismissed Kaname and the seventeen-year-old didn’t hesitate to leave the elaborate room. He walked down the passageways hoping not to get lost.

“Kaname!” Called a fake, friendly voice. The chocolate-eyed boy turned to see a silver haired boy with glasses.

“Hmph,” Kaname grunted.

“Now is that anyway to act towards me? If Orochimaru-sama finds out you disrespect me you know what he’ll do to you.”

“I’m sorry I wasn’t listening. What were you saying?” Kaname said lazily as he picked at his fingernails.

“You’re going to be sorry, you know that right?”

“Orochimaru-sama loves me. He’d only go so far as to use his fingernails on me. He’s completely all talk and no show when it comes to me.” Kaname spat.

“You say that now. He’s just being nice. When you finally piss him off enough you will be sorry.” Kabuto hissed.

“Wonderful. Maybe he’d accidentally kill me and I could get out of this prison.” Kabuto stormed off leaving the Tatsu to walk alone. As the youth was about to visit Sasuke in his room he decided to make a left turn at the intersection and go into a room he is supposedly said to “stay out” of. He walked into the room and stood above a man in a hospital bed with many tubes and wires hooked up to him.

“Kimimaro,” Kaname said sadly. “I miss you.” The silver-haired man didn’t respond. Kaname watched a neon green liquid drip into the man’s mouth. “Orochimaru-sama decided to get me a collar. He wants to seem more dominant over me. I wouldn’t mind so much if he didn’t make it into such a big deal. I like the man already. I always have. Even after he tricked my entire family…I still like him.” Kimimaro made no signal that he even heard the boy, but he did. He wanted to move, to speak to the suffering boy. He wanted to be able to comfort him. For the past two years the two had developed some form of relationship. They’ve kissed each other, but never called it a “romantic” relationship. Kaname belonged to Orochimaru, and if Kimimaro and Kaname were ever found out about…Kimimaro would already be dead. He also didn’t want Orochimaru to think poorly of him. He wanted Orochimaru to always remember him as his once perfect container, to be able to understand him even when he was gone. He wanted Orochimaru to never forget him. Kimimaro gathered up enough strength to move his hand. Kaname saw the slight movement and gently took Kimimaro’s fair hand in his own. He caressed the older man’s near freezing hand with his thumb, never taking his eyes off the cloth that covered Kimimaro’s beautiful face.

“I’m going to miss you so much,” Kaname continued talking to the dying man. “Why did you have to get sick?” Tears stung the boy’s eyes as he remembered the sweet memories of when Kimimaro wasn’t ill, when they could spend time together.

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“Am I doing this right Orochimaru-sama?” Kaname asked as he held one kunai in his right hand and the other hand out in a protective manner.

“Mm, almost. If you ever plan on landing a hit on Kimimaro you may want to not look so obvious. Try this.” Orochimaru placed two kunai in each of the boy’s hands. “There now you may have a chance of at least startling him.”

“I’ll hit him.” The boy said determinedly. He moved at a speed that was unable to see with the naked eye. Orochimaru was watching in excitement, as he was able to cut Kimimaro's arm a bit. “I’m sorry! I’m sorry did I hurt you?” Kimimaro smiled and pushed the boy to the ground playfully. “Hey! What was that for?”

“You hit me. I hit you!” Kimimaro smiled cutely at the boy. He helped him up and they turned their attention to Orochimaru.

“That was amazing. How were you able to get to such a speed?” The snake asked.

“My dragon blood helped me. I used some of the dragon’s power and was able to move quicker than a regular human.”

“Excellent.” Orochimaru stated. He had thought of using the boy’s body instead of Kimimaro, because of this speed but he felt that power was more useful than just being able to move quickly…even though it too has its good sides. “I have some business to attend to. Why don’t you to go play hm?” The two boys nodded and Orochimaru parted from them.

“You’ve gotten stronger. If I didn’t use my bones as a shield you may have actually cut into my arm’s muscles.” Kimimaro said as he looked at his cut.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t want to attack you but Orochimaru-sama made me.” The teen said.

“It’s fine. I know you wouldn’t ever kill me.”

“Let’s go to the river!” Kaname shouted happily. He took off at a sprint down to the river. He didn’t hesitate on taking off his shirt, but he left his pants on. He was never comfortable getting naked in front of anyone. “The water’s warm! Come on Kimi!” Kimimaro smiled at the name Kaname used for him as took off his long robe-like shirt and got into the crystal clear water with his friend.

“Mm…it is nice.” Kimimaro said as he allowed the water to come up to his shoulders. “Kaname? Kaname where are-” Kimimaro was suddenly taken under the water by his feet. He kicked to get his attacker off and when he came up to the surface he saw Kaname holding his eye. “Oh…Kaname! You startled me! Is your eye ok?” Kaname removed his hand from his eye. It was bruised. “Oh Kaname, I’m sorry!”

“It’s fine. Payback from me getting you earlier yeah?” Kaname smiled.

“I guess. But Orochimaru-sama won’t like it. He’ll be upset with me…” The silver-haired man trailed off.

“No he won’t. I did it to myself! We’ll just say that we were playing tag and I smacked into a tree!”

“Aren’t we a little old to be playing tag?”

“Ok…we were having a race to the river first and I looked back to see where you were and I smacked into a tree branch!” Kimimaro laughed lightly at the boy. His innocence was something the older man prayed would never be ruined like his was.

“Ok, but if he doesn’t believe you, we’re both in trouble.”

“Oh he’ll believe me. I’m good at lying.”

“As I can see.” Kimimaro said playfully. Kaname giggled and splashed his friend. They began to wrestle lightly when Kaname found himself in Kimimaro’s arms. He looked into Kimimaro’s striking green eyes and noticed their faces were becoming closer and closer until…Kaname’s eyes widened in shock. He felt Kimimaro’s tongue exploring his own mouth and his own tongue gently caressing Kimimaro’s…what was more shocking was that he enjoyed it. They were friends…only friends. That’s as far as Kaname wanted it to go. But you could still be a friend and kiss right? The teen closed his eyes and deepened their kiss as he wrapped his arms around Kimimaro. They finally broke the kiss and Kimimaro rested his forehead against Kaname’s.

“Kimi…”

“Don’t say anything. Right now this feels perfect.”

*~*~*

“Kimi…I don’t know how I’m going to be able to live here without you. You’re the only one I’ve truly opened up to. I haven’t even told Orochimaru half of the things I’ve told you. Please fight your sickness and get better. I need you.” Kaname gave the dying man’s hand a gentle squeeze before leaving the room. Even though the teen couldn’t see it, Kimimaro lay there…crying. He didn’t want to leave the boy or Orochimaru…but he had no choice. He was dying. But he didn’t want to die like this. He wanted to do one last thing that would be remembered by Kaname forever…even if it was something as small as a final smile. He couldn’t let himself die like this; alone.

*~*~*

“Kaname!” A boy’s voice called. Kaname looked up at the raven-haired boy known to be Uchiha Sasuke.

“Hey Sasuke,” he said solemnly.

“What’s wrong? Want to spar with me?” Sasuke asked. The brunette shook his head and kept his eyes focused on the floor. “Please tell me Kaname.”

“I’m going to miss Kimimaro. That’s all.”

“Oh. I thought Orochimaru told you not to go in there anymore. Cause it only would upset you…as is proven," Sasuke said being a smartass.

“I can’t help it! He’s dying in there…dying alone. Do you know how sad and lonely he must feel? To-” Kaname’s voice cracked as tears started to roll down his perfect face. “Today he couldn’t even move! All he could do was twitch his hand. He was so cold. I’ll bet he hates me for leaving him like this!”

“Hey come here,” Sasuke said pulling his friend closer to him. They collapsed onto the floor in a tight embrace and Sasuke let the older boy cry into his shoulder.

“I wish he didn’t have to die!” The brunette cried. Sasuke stroked the boy’s soft, brown hair lovingly as he tried to calm his friend down. Since coming here Kaname has been the only person Sasuke wanted to associate himself with…other than Orochimaru, but he was basically forced to do that. And he wanted the power Orochimaru had to offer. He needed it if he were ever going to kill Itachi.

“Well, if he doesn’t die, he’ll always be in that room. Wouldn’t you rather have his soul free and happy?” Sasuke asked trying to cheer the boy up. He was never really good with this kind of thing.

“I’d rather him get better so we can go play at the river like we used to.”

“Then help him get better.”

“How?” Kaname asked blinking away tears.

“Just help him fight it. Let him know he isn’t alone. Don’t say that you’re going to miss him…tell him you’ll see him tomorrow. Don’t let him think he’s going to die. That could help him recover. Or get Orochimaru to send him to a really good hospital…or capture the people that make the hospital really good and have them work with him to make him better!”

“I’m going to try it! Thanks Sasuke!” Kaname hugged Sasuke tightly and kissed him on the cheek before skipping off to see no other than his own master, Orochimaru to see if he could get someone to make Kimimaro better. Meanwhile Kimimaro lay there on his bed alone…wishing that Kaname would just come in and speak to him even if it were about nothing. He lived to hear that voice, and now that it was gone…he felt his life fading away too. But he had to hold on. He had to for Kaname and Orochimaru. For both of them…he’d fight as much as he could. He wanted Kaname to see him smile at least one more time.

(a/n Yeah this was short but it's midnight and I'm falling asleep at the computer. If I get any reviews on it while I'm sleeping I'll post another of this tomorrow that's longer. Right now I just wanted to set up some kind of plot-line.)

To See Him Ashamed

“Orochimaru-sama?” Kaname asked as he poked his head in the door. Orochimaru was brushing his hair in front of the vanity-table.

“Come brush my hair Kaname-kun.” Kaname abided and took the brush from his master’s hand. He brushed through the silky hair waiting for the right time to speak.

“Is there any hope of Kimimaro getting better?” Kaname ventured asking without permission.

“Doubtful.”

“Not even any of your jutsus?”

“No.” Kaname sighed as he continued brushing the long, raven hair. “You really are attached to Kimimaro.”

“He’s my friend.” Orochimaru’s cold eyes looked at Kaname through the mirror.

“If I didn’t know better I’d say you two were almost lovers.” Kaname’s hands shook but he didn’t show any form of fear or worry on his face. He didn’t want Orochimaru ever finding out what they used to do with each other. “Kaname, you can stop now.” Kaname put the brush on the vanity-table as his master grabbed his hand. “If you want me to put any effort into keeping Kimimaro alive for longer than what he has left, you’d best submit to you.” Kaname nodded knowing where this was going. “Please me and I’ll see what I can do.” Typical of the Sannin. Kaname would have to do what he wants but Orochimaru never guarantees he’ll do what Kaname wants.

“How would you like me?” The snake’s eyes roamed Kaname’s tall, lean body before answering.

“Naked.” It was hard for Kaname to comply. He was proud…almost too proud. He wanted to kill Orochimaru for being such a bastard. He did respect the power Orochimaru had and at some times liked him, but mostly he hated him. He hated him for putting Kimimaro in a dark room and to be left alone. He hated how the snake had to dominate over him. Kaname slowly took his clothes off willing himself to continue forward. ‘I’m doing this for Kimimaro. Only for Kimimaro.’ Orochimaru’s eyes held excitement and lust as he watched the boy slowly strip himself of his clothes. Soon the boy was standing in front of Orochimaru naked and awaiting further instructions. “Get on your hands and knees.” Kaname’s eyes burned with anger. He knew Orochimaru was doing this on purpose. The Sannin had never taken advantage of Kaname so much. Usually it was just a quick blowjob or a hand job and that was it. Never had Orochimaru forced the boy to submit in such a degrading way.

Kaname however did as he was told and got onto his hands and knees. Orochimaru took off his own clothing and got behind the boy resting on his own knees. Kaname prepared himself for the pain he would be enduring. He had done this before with Kimimaro. Only it was much more loving and consensual. As the pain surged through his body, the memories flooded back to the boy.

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“Kimi, please go easy on me. I’ve never done this before,” Kaname pleaded as he wrapped his long legs around Kimimaro’s sweating body. Kimimaro kissed up Kaname’s chest and licked around the boy’s nipples. Kaname’s breath hitched as he felt himself growing harder than he already was. Kimimaro lapped gently around the hardened nipple before gently nipping at the skin. “Kimi!”

“It’s ok Kaname. I’ll go really slowly for you. The last thing I want to do is hurt you.” Kaname nodded as he brought his lips up to catch Kimimaro’s. The brunette forced his tongue dominatingly into the older man’s mouth, exploring every corner of the moist cavern. Kimimaro’s tongue met with the younger boy’s and gently lapped at the muscle. He moved one of his fingers behind the boy and slowly inserted it into the boy’s core.

“Oh God!” Kaname breathed out trying to fight back tears. It hurt and he wanted to stop, but he knew it would get better because it was Kimimaro and Kimimaro was never going to hurt him if he could avoid it. He felt another finger enter and he yelled out in pain.

“Shh! If Orochimaru hears us we’re dead,” Kimimaro said as he sucked Kaname’s earlobe into his mouth. He massaged the skin with his tongue and moved his lips to Kaname’s eyes where he kissed away the tears.

“Kimi, it hurts.” Kimimaro nodded knowing the feeling. He felt the same pain the night Orochimaru came into his room when he was still just a young boy. He licked up Kaname’s jaw line before taking the boy’s lips in his own. He kissed the boy passionately and continued moving his fingers slowly in a scissoring motion. He then inserted a third finger and felt blood trickle down his hand. He looked deep into Kaname’s brown eyes. Lust, fear, pain, and love swarmed in those eyes.

“This is going to hurt about as much as it is right now, but I promise you it will get better.” Kaname nodded slowly and bit his bottom lip. Kimimaro slowly entered the boy’s stretched out entrance, rolling his hips slowly into the boy. Kaname moaned softly into Kimimaro’s shoulder to muffle any sound that may reach Orochimaru’s room. Kimimaro looked into those chocolate eyes again waiting for Kaname’s permission to continue. The boy nodded and Kimimaro again rolled his hips into the boy, burying himself farther into the shaking boy’s body. Kaname felt the pain slowly go away and began to feel pleasure as he watched Kimimaro’s eyes slide shut. He kissed the silver haired man’s nose lightly. Startled, the older man looked at the boy questioningly.

“I think I love you.” Kimimaro’s heart melted. He never wanted to be apart from this boy ever. He never wanted to leave his body. Tears formed at the corners of the stronger man’s eyes as he began to quicken the pace. Kaname moaned softly pulling Kimimaro further into him. He wanted Kimimaro farther inside him. Farther than what was humanly possible. He kissed the green-eyed man harshly and desperately as they rolled their hips into each other. Kaname’s body was shaking in pleasure and pain, as he couldn’t take it anymore.

“Touch me please!” He begged. Kimimaro complied as he gently wrapped his fingers around Kaname’s pulsating member. He stroked the organ delicately but kept with his pace. “Ah…ah!” Kaname couldn’t hold out much longer, but he wanted Kimimaro to release before him. It only seemed fair, but his reasoning wasn’t even understood to him anymore. He heard Kimimaro moan loudly and say things the boy had never heard him say before. He heard him say dirty things, almost disgusting things but he loved knowing that he was the cause of Kimimaro’s climax and uncontrollable mouth. Kaname finally spilled his hot liquid all over his stomach and on Kimimaro’s chest. Kimimaro collapsed onto the boy slowly taking himself out of the brunette. “Kimi?”

“Mm?”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”
*~*~*
But the feeling Kaname felt now was nothing even close to pleasure, love, or even pain. It was humiliation. Kimimaro was gentle with his body whereas Orochimaru was harsh and didn’t take time to prepare his opening. He felt blood trickle down his leg as he finally heard the snake come. His insides seared in pain as Orochimaru’s seed spilled into him. The Sannin composed himself and pulled out of the boy.

“Clean yourself up,” was all that Orochimaru would say. Kaname’s butt was up in the air and his chest was against the cold floor. He was so ashamed that he didn’t want to be living anymore. His body was once loved, once adored. Now it was used and beaten. Tainted. Kaname felt tainted. Tears formed at the corners of his eyes. He knew Orochimaru wouldn’t lift a finger to help Kimimaro. Kimimaro was going to die and there was nothing the boy could do about it. He closed his eyes and flopped his entire body onto the cold floor. He was imperfect, unable to do anything for Kimimaro. He took a deep breath and slowly stood up feeling the blood, and semen slide down his legs. It was hard for him to walk and he collapsed onto the floor in front of a now clean and composed Orochimaru.

“Did I not say clean yourself up?”

“Why are you angry with me?”

“I’m not angry. Just displeased.”

“Was I not good enough for you?”

“No. You weren’t. You’ve already been had.” Kaname’s heart skipped a beat as panic pulsated through his body. How could he tell?

“I’m sorry.”

“Who already had you?”

“I…” Orochimaru slapped the boy hard across the face sending him to the other side of the room. Kaname was in fear. He had never seen Orochimaru like this before. Orochimaru would never hit Kaname before. But maybe that was before he knew Kaname wasn’t a virgin.

“Kimimaro? Did he have you first? Did he? Answer me you brat!” This time it was not a slap across the face but knuckles meeting skin. Kaname looked down, afraid of looking up into his master’s furious yellow eyes.

“…Yes.” He finally said softly. That was it; Orochimaru was going to kill Kimimaro. Kaname felt his heart shatter and tears flow from his eyes. But to his surprise Orochimaru wiped a cool, damp cloth over Kaname’s forehead and down to both of his cheeks. Kaname looked timidly into the Sannin’s eyes and noticed that anger wasn’t the emotion that was held in his sinister orbs; sadness was.

“I was afraid of that. I’ve always been skeptical of your relationship with each other. And now all the answers are clear to me. Do you love him?” Kaname was unsure of how to answer. If he said yes would Orochimaru kill Kimimaro? Would he be angry? If he said no would Orochimaru kill him anyway? Would he be happy? Sad? Anything?

“…I, I do. Very much.” Orochimaru’s eyes iced over with hatred as he continued to bore holes into the younger boy’s eyes. “I’d have loved you too, if you weren’t so cruel.” Orochimaru's eyes melted as he settled down onto the floor, next to Kaname.

“That same line came out of someone else before not too long ago.” Orochimaru pulled Kaname into his strong arms and held the naked boy there, wiping away the blood and seed from his legs and bottom. “I was in love with someone before. Only, I knew he’d never be in love with me. He kept to himself and didn’t let anyone in. Out of anger and furry I tried to dominate over him once. But that same line came out of his mouth, “I’d have loved you too, if you weren’t so cruel.” Kaname looked into Orochimaru’s eyes. Sadness was the only sentiment present in those lost, golden orbs. Kaname felt Orochimaru become distant and in thought. He decided to lie there with the man. His body was in pain and he desperately wanted to see Kimimaro, but Orochimaru needed someone in his time of weakness, someone to protect him, someone to hold him.

A/n: I know, short. I'm rushing to make all my stories updated today and I'm not sure if I'll get them all finished. Review and I'll get another chapter out before I go on vacation this weekend!