-sasuke-


I hate Shikamaru.

I hate Tsunade.

And gods, I really wish I hated you.

You are silent, walking obediantly beside me.

You haven't spoken since I told you to shut up.

But that's fine.

I don't want to hear your voice now.

Do you know why?

It's because it reminds me that I love you.

I love you, Naruto.

I fucking love you.

And I hate it.

I try so hard to get myself to hate you.

To detest you.

To wish you away again.

But you're still here.

And you're still next to me.

And you're still infuriatingly beautiful.

I love you.

And it's driving me insane.

Seeing your face makes my heart ache.

Feeling your skin against mine...

It's so breathtaking...

So bittersweet.

I wish you'd stop trying to touch me.

Why did you have to kiss me?

Why did you kiss me, damn it?

It makes everything worse.

Even more confusing.

Even more difficult to hate you.

I need you out of my life.

I need you gone so that I can breathe again.

So I can forget all of this pain.

But then, without you...

I doubt I'd be able to survive.

Losing you...

Again...

Would kill me.

Damn you, Naruto.

Damn you for turning my world upside-down when I'd finally began to turn it right again.

I finally began to hate you.

To despise your very existence.

Why did you come back and make me forgive you?